When I used to hear people say that their baby’s first birthday was coming up and they felt emotional, I’d think that they must be bonkers, but as Cass’s first birthday grows closer I feel like an emotional wreck, and yes, slightly bonkers.
What a year, I never thought such a tiny little thing could teach me so much. My heart could burst with love for this small human that has entered our lives. We are so lucky to be parents to a gorgeous, funny, healthy little boy. There have been times when I have felt that I have been pushed to the absolutely edge and there have been days and nights where I’ve thought that there is no way I’m going to get through this. Having a new baby has been exhausting, both mentally and physically but we have over come things that I never thought possible and I have learned so much about myself and other people.
My relationship with my husband has never been so strong, yes we probably talk a bit less and scroll a bit more, but looking after Cass has been the ultimate team building exercise. Not only have we shown the naysayers that you CAN make a fiat 500, a small baby and massive Doberman work. We have also become experts in surviving on 30 minutes sleep and have learned every single word to The Jungle Book sound track.
As I look back over the past year, I remember exactly what was happened on this day twelve months ago and yes it is very emotional, I mourn for the excitement and uncertainty of what kind of parents we thought we would be and what our tiny little baby would show us, but as he grows his little personality is coming through and it has been amazing to see him change.
This year has been full of emotions and terrifyingly amazing things and although I feel like we have reached a mile stone and the end of something, there is still so much more to go. Here’s to surviving the first year as three.
Happy Birthday my amazing little Cass.